A meeting with the Dark Goddess.

The dark goddess loves a good death, because she loves a good birth.

The dark goddess took/takes me to hell to allow me to remember my Wholeness. ❤️‍🔥

She tapped me on the shoulder. In the way only the Dark Goddess can.

Subtle as a tsunami. The biggest energy I have ever felt. The kind of energy you touch and feel in your body and wonder if it will destroy you.

And it will. And it did. And it does.

I was terrified.

I resisted letting her in until I realized that the lack of surrender was simply feeding my Ego's attempts at keeping me small.

I met her in dreams, in my body, in somatic work, in journeys. I met her through others. I met her through the epic Sedona storms.

I met her in my wrath and rage.

I met her in my wounded maiden and terrified inner children.

I met her when I felt like it and when I didn't.

I met her through Dharma.

And when I stray, it's felt.

The choicelesness of facing myself and Truth. And the actual danger and harm of not communing with her. Of not seeing clearly. Of not being self honest and therefore, off the Path.

She reveals my unconscious to me constantly, forcing me to look at Truth but only when the time is right.

There is no urgency. There is no agenda. She has no skin in the game. Pure sovereign revelation. There is just - Truth.

Self honesty is the foundation of the Path. She keeps me honest.

She shows me myself - my self and then the truth, my Self in ways that words could never encapsulate but I'm sure I'll spend the rest of my life trying.

She kills me constantly, eats my grief, pain, suffering and fear for breakfast, and doesn't wince at well, anything. She is ... everything.

She loves a good death because she loves a good birth. She has shown me that they are the same.

he destructive force of the Goddess is pure love.

She doesn't give a f*ck about the collateral of the small self and my life. She doesn't care about Shelby and yet she cares so much about Liberation of all from the confines of the Ego.

She only sees Liberation and Sovereignty and Truth.

She sees Me. Whatever that means.

She is me. And you. And we are her. And she is us.

To fear her power is to fear our own.

I am deeply simultaneously humbled and empowered daily by this relation.

And when I feel like giving up and the Path feels too hard (because at times, IT DOES), she reminds me that she actually isn't going anywhere.

And she never did.

What a gift to remember.

Jai Kali Ma. ❤️‍🔥